I’ve been hiding since you left
I’m building my walls back up
like clockwork
I hide behind layers of mascara and
clouds of smoke
food pushed across a plate and
smiles that don’t reach

I pretend not to recognize you
when I see you
and I know it seems so fucking cold
but there’s a wall between us

It’s got “PULLED APART”
graffitied across

I love your goddamn freckles but
now I look away
without trying to count them all
in the back of my head

Not sure what happened
to all my defenses
but it felt like time
to hide again