Until this moment I have not realized that I was being taught to believed I do not have feelings that matter . Every feeling and intial thought erased because I have to “filter myself”. To society I am a threat and now I began to think about what is society because everybody black feels incarcernated. Society is exclusive. Society are the believers of the European thinking that values the materialistic things like money, greed, and self.

Society doesn’t emphasis community or nature or love, but what is best for them. Even rappers try to tell us the truth but get shunned by our institutions when the human way is to express thy self.

But back to what I was saying..

I still feel stuck between these parallel worlds of academics and accepting myself. I sometimes feel I don’t belong in any institution, no ethnic group, family, friend group. Like if I was to create my perfect family and friends I wouldn’t even know where to start. So i’m stuck in this world feeling lost 85% of the time