You know what sucks? When you fall a little too fast for someone. You start to enjoy their conversation and those conversations lead to attachment.. to comfort. You start to picture how you can be the best person for them and that you would attend their every need and fulfill their every want. You drive yourself insane with these thoughts, getting excited , planning ahead, dreaming that you almost forget how little of time you’ve spent , how you didn’t even see them yet but it’s the rush of emotions they give you. Their smile when you say something stupid and their passion when they talk about life- it all wraps into one leaving you obsessed. You forget that it’s just you, though. That you’re the type to fall, deeper than others and before them.. that you fuck up and mention it too early that you like them. You wanna settle and not just for anyone but for them. You think it’s gonna get somewhere after this so you just wait. You have his friends talk to him about it . And you wait. You keep waiting until he tells you he just wants to be friends. So he no longer calls you. He becomes busy. The park and school is his favorite excuse for why he wasn’t texting back. And now you’re here. Wondering what the fuck went wrong, blaming yourself constantly, seeing him online but afraid to even say hi. I know i’ll never be able to tell you this. But I apologize for rushing things. I’m sorry. I should’ve known better. Wish u the best cause now I know it won’t be the same. I miss you
No one ever talks about this and how it fucks you up so bad because you didn’t even get to be with them so now what
Life with Tierra 