Unsent messages

Why do i always feel wrong or never women enough? Are you doing what’s best for you? Are you skiing your best decisions ? And i wasn’t trying to avoid conflict ? I just hate conflict .. it makes me uncomfortable and makes me anxious. And i barely talk to people or anything and you’re right short burst of people make me ok. I spend a lot of time around people at work so home is no I’m good on that. If you wanna go out that’s fine but you always leave it to me to decide and with what money? Right now i want to save money and understand what I’m getting myself in. I’m constantly processing all of this and it’s a journey. Furthermore how can i really express myself without feeling like i have to comfort you with every word? I live in your space, under your roof.. like that in itself is dependency and yea i trust your a good guy and won’t turn on me but still like yo it’s a lot. So i turn to outside sources to find comfort.