Nowhere near Rock Bottom

You used to think if i was your girlfriend all

My problems would be solved and that I would magically end in a happily ever after love story. So far I have learned that I had no idea what I was getting myself into. The love in my heart is unconditional. I waited so long to give it to someone I can confide it . All these months have been so blissful and we are no where near rock bottom, but but we still swimming towards it. It’s scary seeing the red flags and signs of a break up approaching— like how could a married person sleep next to a stranger? Do they just ignore what’s happening and continue to live in blissful fantasy? I wonder how much pain my grandmothers and ancestors they went through. I mean any partnership comes with hardships but am I strong enough or willing to set my pride aside to fix these issues ? It’s just so many questions I have. And maybe at camp everything will be temporarily fixed. Last week I said the answer was space, but maybe it’s simply truth.