Is this the phase where I just search your name every other day and think about whether I’m on your mind? And then I get mad for us not lasting without trying to beat myself up about it? Then try to act mature like this is for the best like no bruh. I miss you like shit and it’s hard babe 😪 Work and friends and family keep me busy but none of them are you. But it gets easier by the day.

I miss you babe. But then again it’s like what are you missing girl? Just getting my ass run or the safe place? Anybody can rub my ass and my apartment is safe but noooo it’s just you. The aura— the energy about being with you just filled me with butterflies and laughs. At the end that energy was gone because we had stuff outside of us going on. I mean life happens but I also dont wanna be one of those dumb couples who keep coming back to each other just because we can’t stay away. Like babe you live a 5 minute walk away. Do you know how hard it is not to come that way. I literally avoid that whole block and get super anxious whenever i go to the corner store like i deadass don’t go to the dollar store and be avoiding tf outta chinese lol. I know i ain’t ready for school to start back over he simple fact that I don’t know how to respond to seeing you on campus or even now.