It’s just funny my biggest concern was if this end will it ever be again and after yesterday’s conversation it makes sense why things unfolded the way they did.

I’m more hurt because I was really tired of connecting before college and I wanted to just be with one person. Everyone kept telling me it was a challenge and it really wasn’t. Regardless my own agenda was in my head and I was still doing everything in my power to keep my scholarship, travel, and get my own space. Nothing on my personal agenda got push aside — but talking to You really out things in perspective and it’s ok that the last situation came to an end. It hurt more we didn’t hit benchmark and that I have to work hard not to think about birthday last year or Valentine’s or all the good memories even though there is not many bad ones to begin with. But I’m still convinced everything was suppose to happen this way. I just wish we both knew because then we would have never. I believe that connection was the most genuine and some things I do need to self-reflect on my own. But getting over all that really doesn’t happen over night.