I missed this

I remember in high school after my breakup I never wrote poetry anymore and now I really don’t be posting in the blog. I still love the blog so dearly. It was always my secret even tho the link was always on all my social media accounts. But hey blog I totally missed you.

Also lately I just been feeling indifferent. I really don’t remember much or freshmen year and yesterday beautiful lady played during the road trip and all the memories of us cooking in the kitchen and dancing came to me. It felt so good laughing with you and the “now I’m on you” jokes like wow that’s a beautiful song and those were some beautiful memories but it’s hard to remember the bad when all I did was smoke or drink it away instead of being so “adult” and talking about it. After a while talking wasn’t doing shit tho. I’m sorry I never listened and now I’m not sure what a take away from that.

But I know you paid folks for videos and pictures. And I’m weak af cause that’s lame especially when you constantly was on my ass about your insecurities and how I should help you — but we’re you really helping yourself? Them dates were during times I was at camp and it never occurred to me to even ask or question you like that. But the no one can hide from the truth