He guts deep in me and I say smack my ass. This nigga looks and says I’m not New York so stop tryna treat me like him. I was applauded y’all. Like how dare you try to compare yourself to him. And i wondered was I really trying to make love to him the way I did Noah? Ooo that’s was a tough seed to swallow. I just laid there letting my feelings eat at me because I was running from the pain of losing him — but there is nothing to fix honestly. We had differences and before anyone was hurt we went our separate ways. I still think it was the best call, but coping with that and my uncle’s death is a lot of the world to ask. I just feel like I’m in a fairy tale or a dream and I need to be awaken. Either way I realized from that moment I CANNOT hold on to that man and that every experience we had was precious. Nobody can have that experience with me too. But no lie it felt sooo good hearing he missed me. He said I changed a lot and he was happy I grew up. That made high school Tierra soo proud cause she knew there had to be more but I enjoyed my time this weekend